I wonder

I wonder what I am feeling right now.

Am I okay?

It's too heavy to hold and I am forced to be cold.

I am afraid of where and what future will take me. My mom wasn't raised me to be like this. Get a grip of yourself, get a grip of your life. Breath in, breath out, things had to be under control. You are happy because happy is a mindset. Everything is on your mind, your fear, you insecurities, they are all on your mind. You are okay as long as you keep your mind on your grip.

I think, therefore I am.

Be careful in this mind game. You know you'll win, you know you'll conquer. Just wait, be sober, be wise, be a grown up. This is just a game you had to win.